I will never forget this year, as I am sure few will. This has been my most difficult year personally, emotionally, mentally, financially, and spiritually. In every way imaginable this year has truly been a struggle. The great irony is how large of expectations 30-year-old Spencer had for this new decade. The disappointment and loss I’ve experienced this year has often been overwhelming. Just remembering some of the terrifyingly dark days and nights takes my breath away. Why did all of this happen, and why did so much that I built and dreamed burn down? I may never know on this side of heaven. I have slowed down to a…